Tuesday, February 03, 2009

Losing Dad

Dad is home safe, but I am losing him. How sad I am these days watching my dad drift away from me. Just like Grandma, first the forgetfulness, then confusion, then suddenly I'll be lost. One day he won't know me, it may only be for a moment, a minute or two, but that day is coming. How do you prepare yourself for that day? When the person who made you the person you are doesn't know you.

Perhaps, I'm the one that is lost, running away from that dreaded day.

Millions of children and spouses face this everyday, I know, but comfort in numbers I do not take.

Thursday, January 15, 2009

2009

Well,well, here we are already! The start of a new year, full of hope, surrounded by sadness. What's on deck for 2009? Lots of things of course, but what can I stay committed to this year?

A. Finish all of those unfinished quilts!
B. Start and finish that list of 13 projects I wanted to do in 2008!
C. Ladies of the Sea, Blue Willow and Bird BOM!
D. Commit to praying the rosary more.
E. Stay positive about Dad.

You'll notice that blogging regularly isn't on the list...but I've had this on my list for the last three years and nothing, so maybe this year will be different. Oh yeah, and losing 15lbs is not on the list this year either.

I'm hopeful surrounded by sadness.